What do you do when your first love comes back and tries to be a part of your life, but you have tried your hardest to get over him and move on. Part of me wants to still be with him, when he has been such a big part of my life, but part of me thinks no matter how long I wait he never will truly care about me like I cared about him.. Add on to the fact he shows up when you start dating someone else, someone he knew. He shows up warning you about that person claiming he cares and doesn’t want you hurt. It is just so hypocritical, when he hurt you more then anyone never really giving you a true apology for breaking your heart multiple times. But then you start thinking well he is right, the guy your currently dating only talks to you maybe 3 times a week and will see you maybe once. And the guy your dating didn’t even get you anything for Valentines day after promising to get you flowers. I am confused on who really is going to hurt me. My first love, I could go for him and wait untill I’m older and then if I really get to be with him I think my life would be perfect, I mean he was my first love. The first guy I gave my heart too and I was inlove with him for such a long time. But then I could just stay with my boyfriend, who I have only been dating for 3 weeks and rarely get to text or talk to or see. He is sweet to me when I’m with him, but I feel like I am in a relationship by myself.. I feel so alone going days without talking to him. Specifically when my first love wished me a happy Valentines day and my boyfriend didn’t. When my first love talked to me more last week then my boyfriend. But there is still that fear, well I break up with my boyfriend and then my first love stops talking to me again and I end up having no one. I’ve given up so many relationships for my first love, because they couldn’t compare to the feelings I had with him. But I’m afraid by giving up all these relationships for him I’m losing opportunities to actually find the guy I am meant to be with, and what if my first love doesn’t actually want to be with me after I have given so much to try and be with him. I could ask my friends for advice. But they wouldn’t really understand my feelings for my first love even though he has hurt me I miss him still. They would just know he hurt me. And my friends don’t know my boyfriend so they can’t say anything about him. I hate not knowing what to do. When I can’t talk to really either guy on what to do because that would just be awkward. Hmm confusion confusion confusion. But one thing I can do, I can blog about it and get all my confusion on paper so to say. Venting makes it easier I guess. Tumblr, what do I do?
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